who I really am a journey in radical honesty.

So I am posting this on the forum as I have just done what I think is one of the hardest things I will do and I want to start the discussion on what is the hardest thing that you have had to admit to yourself and how did it go and how did you want it to go. I am admitting that I am needing some physical intimacy and that I am not exactly straight but interested in either gender I couldn’t bring myself to say bisexual on camera but that is who I am and I have had a girl crush on a friend for a while and I am hoping that she would be open to the idea and that we can work through this in a way that refects who we are as authentic selves as she knows that I am bi but doesn’t realise that I am interested in her. I have been covering myself by saying a friend was more than a friend to her but this isn’t the way and I feel that I need to put this out to the universe to be able to manifest someone into my life and I need too stop lying to myself that I am straight. It’s something that being brought up in various churches has made me feel less for and something that I have struggled with and we see that I need to be aware of this and I am getting into life a lot more and dealing with the issues that come with that as well.