I have had a very interesting morning and it’s something that I never thought could happen to me, but I believe that we all think this, especially as a vulnerable adult that nearly has given up on Blogging and YouTube I see that Mr. Beast and others have taken years to take off. So I am not giving up hope but I missed a phone call from an overseas number today and I am not sure who it was I am really winding myself up due to the fact that I can’t figure out who it is.
I know that I shouldn’t worry about who is it but I can’t stop thinking about who is it and did I miss out on an opportunity due to the fact that I didn’t answer it. It seems to be the problem of the modern world thinking what have I missed out on instead of working out what people have done and what we can do for others and seeking to get off our devices and we see that even children are eschewing, traditional jobs such as Doctors, Pharmacists, Nurses, and Vets in favour of aspiring to be YouTubers or to make an income on other platforms.
I say this as I was commenting on a YouTube video and I was called out as I was commenting about people who where faking disabilities for views and they where accusing me of the same thing but I have realised something fundamentally important that I am chronically online and to get offline is important and that I need to get off line a lot more so I got a support worker to take me to the local technical college and to get a course guide. I am going to start dog walking again as I hear lots of dogs barking around the Neighbourhood as well.
But I think it is sad that we don’t see neighbourhood teens and university students, do the same thing and be able to check on other’s. I also see that we are so online that we are so disconnected from each other and there are futurists that are ringing alarm bells saying that we need to preserve the ability to do things without technology like read a map, count change and to be able to wash up by hand. It’s something that we are seeing a rise in hobbies but people putting them online as well and I am not surprised by this because people need to be able to live. I am grateful that I have family support and that I am able to have income support while I build up the blog and YouTube to a sustainable business.
However I do lack one thing to make it work for me and this is something that I need to work on, self-discipline. I used to have a lot but I now lack it and I really don’t know why and I now understand that there is a limit to what people can do on their own and this can be the issue as well, as isolation as well and isolation is something that we need to talk about in people with disabilities as well.
Lots of well-meaning people will come into their lives and try to “fix” them and then they don’t realize that this is really harming them due to the fact that people seem to want to see them be normal. However this does more harm than good due to the fact that people see to not understand what is happening and it frustrates both parties as this can become annoying to both parties when the realization that a person isn’t going to get better dawns on them and that this is them.
I mention this as I have had this realization with myself and that I need to get back to having the self discipline and motivation that I had when I started the blog, but at the same time to not isolate myself and this is something that I think we all need to work on as a community to included the people with disablites, and the older people who are isolated but at home most of the time as well.
As disconnecting to connect is sometimes the best thing you can do and this is what I am going to try to do this year. I also am going to look at study and this being to build skills I need to run a successful business as I have finally realised that know one is going to hand me success on a plate and that I need to get motivated and that to stop using my disability and the fact that I don’t have a traditional job, well there is plenty that I can do to help my community off line and it’s just asking for the help to get there and that there is plenty of free things to do now in our community and I have spoken up to the family to help me. I know that this is a massive issue in the isolation of the disabled community but it’s something that I see is being helped by good support workers and a much better understanding of disability as well.
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